the right direction, mind is clearing

ok im really sad atm. I cant study all week, couldnt concentrate and things like that. Sighzzzzzzzz

its 1:40am i can't sleep, only thinking about the things i chosed to do.

Feelings are awkward with tracy, never really got along with her, but we got close pretty quickly maybe cuz she engages alot and sms me all the time. I only known her for 2 weeks! and i hardly know her or find her interesting beside that she's a lil cute looking and playful. I think if she looked different i wouldnt even go for her. Personality is just not right for me and the things she's into and her standards etc etc.

Now i regret what i did. Tash really minds that im stuck between 2 people i like. Well now im pretty sure i wont be going for Tracy anymore. Im gonna leave it at that. We would just be friends. You see my gut feeling always pointed to Tash, but she felt somewhat distant cuz she never messages me or calls me up often, like tracy did. I keep thinking Tash isnt interested in me.

I think i know what to do now... But im having these thoughts just before my exam! i cant even concentrate sighzzzzz. I shouldnt even be thinking about girls atm, until things are over. Every night i think about natasha. heh doubt she thinks about me =p

I dont really care if tash reads this now, i guess she can understand me more from reading this maybe?

Im so excited, i asked tash to dinner on saturday, and she said she can go. Hopefully she can go and wont dog it =p We are also celebrating grace's bday on thursday so fun fun fun. Hopefully i can get my assignment done before i can have fun cuz its due on friday! >_<

The other day was quite fun shopping with tash for grace's present and her camera. She bought a new camera 1040 olympus, i bet ya she's having so much fun with that thing lol, probably gonna take luvos and put it all on facebook. She promised me that i will be the first person she will take a photo with, thats going to be nice lol.